Time for updates for the blog! Anyway, eoys are coming! TIME TO MUG!
Veeennn! I know yours ending! Don't make us jealous! ]: HOLIDAY MODE. O: 1 week and 1 day for meeeeeeee. Pfft. JIAYOU ALL. :D
AUDREY. I can have my iPod back, finally! :D
Thursday, September 27, 2007
9:23 PM
ELI HAD GONE MAD SHE IS OH SO RANDOM AND SHE MONOLOGUES.
just basically, i`m tired of life. why don`t i just take a knife ans stab myself real hard. Nothing seems to work for me. I have no responsibility, i have no respect, i have no commitment, i just don`t treasure my life. That`s because no one cared for me, why should i care about myself?
i don`t need any love, i don`t need to be loved as i don`t even love myself. what for live if i don`t even have the determination to live.
i just basically have no life being like a parasite rot one corner and don`t even do anything else. only do something when being told.
sometimes i wonder why on earth people like me exist. they are just a rubbish to the society. people like me don`t deserve to be love and care instead, let them die alone with no one around to help to bury
love life, school life, home life, cyber life are just heartbreakers why do i even have a life
sometimes, people wonder where is the girl that people use to know she just vanished and dissapear into the thin air people like her dont even deserve to live
i always wanted to be living in my own world and not to be known by others where i am. i don`t even think they will bother to ask such questions dying alone and fulfil others one and only wish.
make it to the point: I DONT WANT TO BE A LONER
Just wanted to be with you % eliina -
Saturday, September 22, 2007
5:54 PM
I'm glad now that Star has thought it through! :D
No more sadness already for you, star! :D Mhhmm, oh yaa, were my advices given to you in the afternoon, of any use? o: I think my advices are lousy. :X
Oh well. I didn't go for study group today anyway. o: I slept till super lateee. I don't think I'll be sleeping today though. :D Got to rush through my artwork. Who wants to accompany me, and talk on the phone today? :D I got to conference, or I'll end up sleeping instead. :X My comfortable bedddddddd. Hahahahaa, anyone conferencing, tell me alright! :D
AUDREY. :D
Friday, September 21, 2007
11:44 PM
仙剑奇侠传 ~ hahahs . i also watched th last epi before i went down t park . was damn touching . i almost cried when th girl died ]: like so sad sia :x
hahahs . i've decided t remove the rantings i did in this post . it's not worth it after all [:
`star -
8:36 PM
It can't be pasted together, but so, why did fate allow us to meet each other.
I'M LIKE SUPER RANDOM. :x Ven gf! This sentence seems like for you. o: Don't be upset already, alright. Even if rejection or whatever else happens unto you, we will always be here. What are friends for! :D & bf like meeeee. {: And so many people wrote composition about Eli's kind also? o: Wowww. All true, I want to read 1 day! :D Later I break down and cry. Uber embarrassing. o: What time is it? It's exams time, it's not vacation! O: HAHAHAA. :X
Sorry, Audrey is toooooo random. I think I'm having study group again tomorrow. Study till my brain burst! Wish me luck, hope my brain & my head doesn't explode. :D Ss homework, art project, chinese online tests, mugging, tuition. BOOOOOOOOOM.
AUDREY.
7:17 PM
jus a break from mugging..
was bathing jus now when i tot a lot... jus cried finish after watching the repeat of the last episode of 仙剑奇侠传.. it never fail to let me cry.. never.. and it make me think a lot more...
a phrase in the show 情有可缘... 我告诉你我喜欢你，是因为我不要以后后悔。我不会要求你喜欢回我，我只是要坦然面对自己的感情。(i confessed to you that i liked you is that i din want to regret. i'm not asking you to like me too, i jus want to face up to my feelings.)
it's not the exact sentence, but yep and i do agree cos that's my mentality.. but guys nv seems to understand this. it's true..
saw my ex crush today... i got rejected kinda insensitively last time... and that has been months ago.. but after i seen him today.. i realised the feelings has nv been erased b4... i've seen him many times since after i said the feelings are gone, even talked to him since we are from the same cca.. but each and everytime, i felt weird with him around, my feelings will go all funny but i nv make it out wad is it... until today..
something my friend said it true.. a girl will still like her previous crushes until she really settle down with the guy of her true love... and i agree...
shld i face up to my feelings? that the truth is i still like him? i dunno.. but i'm definitely not going to confess.. i dun wan all to happen all over again..
it's a question mark.
venn^^
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
5:07 PM
Write about a time when you built a relationship with someone unexpectedly.
As i was finding a book in the nearest shopping mall library, I came acoss a novel that was written by my favourite author, Daren Shiau. My life had been lonely lately so I decided to take up reading as a hobby.
Suddenly, someone pushed me. I lost my balance and fell. Then, there was a guy beside me apologising profusely to me and I forgave him. Then, I looked up and stared at his friends. I noticed they were laughing at him. Probably his friends pushed him and accidentaly pushed me.
A few weeks later, during the long holiday, I met him again in an Internet Cafe. When I was at the counter, he was just behind me queueing up to play on any avaialble computer. In the end, we both got the computer next to each other. At first, I did not recognise him until he asked me whether I remembered him when we were sitting next to each other. We introduced ourselves and exchange handphone numbers. I finally knew his name, Jason.
As we were playing the same game, being a busybody, I looked at his computer and spotted his character name. I found him familiar and asked whether he is the guy I was thinking about. To my astonishment, he is the one. I told him my game character name and his jaw dropped.
From that day onwards, we communicated with each other almost everyday. He changed my world with a blink of an eye and it was something i cannot deny. He put my soul from worst to best and that was the reason why I treasured him as my dearest.
At last, he asked me to be his girlfriend and I agreed. We went out together frequently.Mostly playing in the Internet Cafe and the games arcade. Since it was a very long holiday, we got lots of free time to be spent. Although he plays alot, he studies too. Sometimes when we go out, we will carry our books along and study together.
Months past and our love for each other still blossom like a rose. W e shared out problems and school life. My school lfie improves because of him. I am no longer lonely like last time.
While we walking with each other at East Coast Park in the evening after we watched the beautiful sunset sank below the horizon, he asked me a question. He asked me for a break up and our relationship ended. I could not believe what he said and escapes from reality.
I ran towards the carpark to find a taxi home. Unfortuantely, he chased after me. I stood in the middle of the road just to find a taxi. He bellowed to me to watch out for the car behind as it wad speeding towards me. I ignored and thought it was just a joke. Then, I found a taxi while the car drew nearer to my direction.
Jason's voice thundered across the road and shouted, "Jane, move!". I still ignored him hen the next moment, I was being pushed aside. He was flung against the car's bonnet and with a loud thud, he landed on the road. With a screech, the errant driver took off.
I ran towards him and saw that his face was pale and smeared with blood. I apologise to him for ignoring. He murmured so softly to me that he did not really mean it to break my heart but he still love me. He need to migrate to somewhere far and he did not want me to be lonely without him around.
I hugged and whispered to his ear, "Iwish you would stay with me. Please, don`t go away....". Suddenly, his heart stopped beating. Tears welled up in my eyes as i felt my world collapse. I could noy accept the fact that he is gone forever.
Suddenly, a small notebook fell off from his pocket. I picked it up and flipped through the pages. It was a diary. I realisd it was a diary about me and him. As I read the last entry, I was touched. What he wrote is that, "You have left a mark in my heart that will never erase. You will aways be in my heart forever. I remember those summore days, we were having fun still sunset."
If I had listened to him, this thing would not happen. After I lost my precious Jason, my life changed drastically. Just like what I was before I met him. I did everything alone.
Few weeks later, I went back to the library to borrow some books. As I was finding the books, I saw some guys were laughing at their friend that was with a girl beside him. It makes me remember how I first met Jason. Only memories between the two of us are left.
Just wanted to be with you % eliina -
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
11:08 PM
hiyeee (: im back guys ^^ emo-ness finally passed over le lah :D though i cause my friend declare bankrupt in audi :x she left XX dens only siaa T.T rawr must earn back for her as soon as possible . before she see th dens missing liao ^^" ahahahs .
`star
7:29 PM
BOO. :D
I am feeling so tireddddddddddd. ]: It's only 7 plus. I feel stupid. o: Anyway, Vennn! You didn't tell me to pay for your bills, but I'm asking you to pay my bills. :D
HAHAHHAA. And, agree! Those who wants to emo, must sought permission from Ven & me first! :D Don't emo anymore okay, girls. More wrinkles, more blah blah. :x You guys emo, later I'll get affected again too. Then all shall be sad togetherrrrrrrr. ]: ]: ]: ]: Ven, your crush crushie thing thingy, I don't understand. O: LOL. :X Sorry, Audrey is stuuupiddd. :X
Alright, Audrey must be a goooood kid now, & do my Chinese online tests! :x My dad shouted at me just now. TT Tataaaa! {:
AUDREY. Don't make fun of me & chinese. ]:
5:21 PM
willie.. 1) i not emo.. (ok i not that emo lols) 2) u 2 more days to everything over, i 6 more days to doom.. lols
and AUDD!! haha i din ask u to pay for my bills leh... hoho..
hmm... recently fan abt a lot of things.. and now i'm very scared of promos.. wad if i retain? haha nvm then i'll be same yr as willie didi.. LOLS
NO CANNOT I MUST GET PROMOTED!! yep.. is i slaughter the papers not they slaughter me.. haha that's wad my teacher said.. haha.. yep must have that mentality..
lols
hmm recently a lots of stuff happened.. that set me thinking and come to a conclusion..
it's ok to like someone, to have a crush for him/her but, it's NOT ok if u are too obsessed with that person when he/she is not even ur couple yet even if 2 are together, it does not mean a thing. cos he/she may jus regard u as a soul mate, and nth else. so in the end? the one getting hurt may be urself. i experienced it b4.. 2 times this yr? sad case. now i'm seeing it happen around me again.. ppl getting hurt and such... wad's the point? it's sweet and nice to have someone there for u, when 2 are truely in love with each other. but if it's a crush, let it BE a crush and not any further.. stay single that way.. it's better.. serious.. cos a crush is easy to let go. it's a thought, an advice, to anyone who have crushes right now.
lucky i dun have.. LOLS.. ok treat it as i'm crapping.. haha ok lah.. my eyecandy.. I SAW HIM TODAYYYYY!! AUDD!!! `STAR!!! haha lols... but jus eyecandy.. something to my eyes... haha.. lols
ok enjoy mugging ppl.. it'll soon be over :)
and no more emoing k ppl.. wan emo get permission from me.. haha!!!
ja nei ^^
venn^^
Monday, September 17, 2007
10:00 PM
*yawns* some sicko who was perveted in th mind sms-ed me today ]: todayy was ultra boring with lots of longgg lectures >.> im gonna go crazy soon lahhs . ihatelongandboringlectures ):
recess time collected debt from didi lols . he ask me not t lose it . i look so careless one arh ? +.+
come home actually wna slp de . some annoying person kept pestering me on msn . okayy lah don't say pester . the conv was q pleasant for a change -.-
thn wna slp , but thn came an annoying sms ]: aiya . i feel so irritated and annoyed =.= both sickos sick in the mind de . completelyyyy :x and tml got 2hrs of hmt +.+ i wna skippp ! maybe pretend fall sick go get mc -.-
anwww . winter tml online hor =.= alrights , thats all for my postie . wna get into my cosy bed and get back my deprived sleep . ahahahs .
eh , still need play audi with tzp =.= okayy ! any kind soul see this can rush t audi t save me from dying ? ><" pretty pleaseee .
`star
8:45 PM
people, I`M BACK. anyone miss me? nehmind. i`m crapping.
the most ridiculous thing i ever did today is cleaning the entire homec kitchen. IS SO ER XIN PL0X
the most lame-st thing i ever did is stare at something and not doing my malay work. who cares? we are given task to use song lyrics and make it into story. before that, my teacher alr ask us to print song lyrics we like. then she said if you don`t print, write down of foolscap the lyrics. -.-
if you ask me, i can`t be bothered about malay songs. i don`t even listen to one. even if i listen, i don`t know the lyrics. the meaning of lyrics i also would not understand and know.
You`re the one who make my life brighten up again, You`re the reason that make me love again, Although I promised myself not to.
You make me forget about my cruel reality, but now everything had changed.
You`re the one who make my life dull, Ever since you left me.
I`m jealous of you with my other friends, They are flirting with you, Making use of you with your talents, Don`t be deceive.
I love you more than ever, Even if you left me. But our relationship will soon fade away & soon we will not be able to recognise each other.
I still remember the times we had together, it seems like yesterday we had just met each other. But I won`t be able to be close with you, just like the past.
You were my one and only msn games partner & No one else. I spent most of my afternoon playing with you, Recalling back the games we played with each other.
But now you`re gone, We head to diffrent directions & Without knowing what lies beyond the silver lining.
My life become useless without you, Without knowing where to go. I`m just a lonely soul that Don`t even deserve to live in this world.
After I found out that you were with someone else, My heart just broke into pieces. Furthermore, someone told you that I love you, & you just rejected me with all your heart & without thinking the consequences & the words that you spitted out to me.
You`re cruel, You`re heartless. Our past were useless? Wasting of time?
Only memories can be replayed in mind. We just show off attitude when being with each other & trying to get out own dignity of life.
Most importantly, You LIED. You lied about hacing steads. You said you don`t even one to have steads, That`s because you`re anti-love & stead. But you stead with your old friend. What`s the meaning of this?
Even if I love you, I don`t even think of steads. Just a very close guy friend, Very close, but not steads.
Now we both move to another direction, forgetting our relationship. I was attracted with anoher guy, Although I`m not supposed to.
I promised myself not to fall in love with any other guys, Anymore. But I broke it, Just broke my promise.
I fell in love with him, Just him. I think about him everyday, every second.
But now, i Just don`t know, I am just a mouse in a complicated maze. Don`t know which direction to go, Just stuck with all my problems with me.
I`ll be waiting for you, Here inside my heart. I`m the one who wants to love you more.
I don`t even think i deserve to live, Just let me die for a very good reason.
Just wanted to be with you % eliina -
8:20 PM
Thoughts read are spoken, forever in doubt. And pieces of memories fall to the ground. I know what I did and so, I won't let this go. Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.
This song is nice. (: Part of the lyrics above is nice too. o: Why are lyrics of sad songs so nice to listen & read? :x Got to start mugging sooooon! ]: I don't want to, I don't want to, I don't want to. o: Blaaaah. Study group for Monday! Caregroup on Wednesday! Study dates on Thursday & Friday! :D Nothing on tomorrow. o: DO ART! :X
Audrey is a very very very busy woman! Shall find something to do now. o: Tata! :D
AUDREY. 4 Oct - 11 Oct, helpppp.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
11:32 PM
ahahahs :D im backkk ! conf was funn ! :D and can finally lax now liao . * phewww * ~wipes sweat~
lols . im talking in riddles -.- nvmnvm . i suddenly feel emo-fied :x RAHH +.+ dunno what happen to me siaa .
in reality , there's nothing like "happily ever after" . you were the one who told me you loved me . you said you couldn't live without me . everything , i drunk in everything . i thought you would be happy with her , at least . I really thought you would . But now time proves me wrong . And you've finally revealed your true self . I was worried , alright ? About you , and your broken heart . You were hurting inside , and I couldn't help but feel sad . Cause I could see how bad you were hurting . I wished I never helped you from the start . You might've been happier if you had been with other girls . emoing - star
9:27 PM
kinda tired. forum is boring. laydio just rawks! ;D bored bored bored.
okay people. i`m off for now. -.- take note of my mia-ing dates.
Just wanted to be with you % eliina -
Saturday, September 15, 2007
5:31 PM
Hey everyoneeee. :D
This blog is getting dead already, isn't it. o: Keep it alive, still! {:
I'm having blisters on my fingers now. :x Stupid art. :x Booooooooo. Anyway, don't emo already okay! Ven gf2 & Star, daughter! Tsktsk. I think I'm sad now too. But oh well! I think you 2 seem more serious. If you 2 don't mind sharing, can tell me anything & everything under the sun, alright! I'll be here no matter what. :D
Take care, you guys. {:
AUDREY.
Friday, September 14, 2007
11:29 PM
boo !
冷咖啡离开了杯垫 leng ka fei li kai le bei dian As the cold coffee leaves the coaster 我忍住的情绪在很后面 wo ren zhu de qing xu zai hen hou mian I desperately tried to hold my emotions far behind 拼命想挽回的从前 pin ming xiang wan hui de cong qian Fighting hard to restore the past 在我脸上依旧清晰可见 zai wo lian shang yi jiu qing xi ke jian On my face you can still see ever so clearly 最美的不是下雨天 zui mei de bu shi xia yu tian that rainy day wasn’t the most beautiful 是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 oh~~ shi ceng yu ni duo guo yu de wu yan It’s the shelters that I once shared with you in the rain 回忆的画面 hui yi de hua mian The pictures in my memory 在荡着秋千 梦开始不甜 zai dang zhe qiu qian meng kai shi bu tian While on the swings dreams become less sweet 你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远 ni shuo ba ai jian jian fang xia hui zou geng yuan You told me that by gradually letting go I’d be able to go further 又何必去改变已错过的时间 you he bi qu gai bian ni cuo guo de shi jian and why bother changing the times that you’ve missed 你用你的指尖 阻止我说再见 ni yong ni de zhi jian zu zhi wo shuo zai jian you used your fingertip to stop me from saying goodbye 想像你在身边在完全失去之前 xiang xiang ni zai shen bian zai wan quan shi qu zhi qian imaging you being by my side before you completely disappear 你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远 ni shuo ba ai jian jian fang xia hui zou geng yuan You told me that by gradually letting go I’d be able to go further 或许命运的签 只让我们遇见 huo xu ming yun de qian zhi rang wo men yu jian Perhaps life’s destiny only allowed us to meet 只让我们相恋 这一季的秋天 zhi rang wo men xiang lian zhe yi ji de qiu tian (and) Only allowed us to love this one season of fall 飘落後才发现 这幸福的碎片 piao luo hou cai fa xian zhe xing fu de sui pian only after the pieces drifted down that I realized these are the pieces of happiness 要我怎麼捡 yao wo zen me jian How do i pick them up
such an emo song ><" i looove this song lah . the lyrics is like x3 . ahahahs xD im just wondering .. if i did the right thing when i helped you decide between those two girls . cause right now im hurting so bad .
10:06 PM
dunno y.. i've been feeling emo today.. y? i dunno...
everytime i hear i feel emo.. i say i'm cranky... but.. i'm not..
feel like cry...
wad shld i do?
then that creep N*** had to pissed me out.. well some humor for the day.. some S.O.B tht has no sense of logic... "respect my young ones" LOL who u trying to imitate? gandalf? merlin? dumbledore? lols i'm telling u u are far from it man.. KID. damn..
i've complex feelings and i din noe what issit it... i dunno what i wan... i dunno wad i'm feeling.. i'm confused... how?
ven^^
Thursday, September 13, 2007
11:49 PM
emo day.. imagine i listen to gotta go my own way throughout the whole day...
I've got to move on and be who I am I just don't belong here I hope you understand We might find our place in this world someday But at least for now I gotta go my own way
haix.. someone cheer me up? lols..
buai... back to books -.-
ven^^
6:53 PM
rahs. having a weird time in school. -.- sleep almost all the time. teacher teaching i go sleep until the whole class all laugh ven during silence reading then my friend beside me say i snore when sleeping choir sleep too xDD and i want go to sp choirperformance. the accapella guys rawks! ;D
Just wanted to be with you % eliina -
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
7:28 PM
I FELT THE EARTHQUAKE!!! WHO FELT IT!!!
lols... i was bathing halfway when i felt the tremor... 2nd time liaos.. lols
ven^^
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
1:50 PM
okayy ! listening t gotta go my own way . such an emo song yeahs :x ahh reminds me of bad memories lah T.T stayed home sickk todayy ): currently haveing serious nose blockage . ohgod i can't breathe :xxxxx im gonna die here silently lah . and i want t use this color forever and ever XD
`star
Monday, September 10, 2007
11:10 PM
boos ! ven don't pissed le lar . i give you nice and sweet lollipops okayy ? :DD i just died ingame ): LOLS ! today tchr caught me replying sms t audrey lah T.T thn ransack my bag find th phone . RAHHH :x but lucky luckyyyyyy ! tchr nvr say anything at all O: imagine if th tchr confiscate . ><" like O.O liddat siaa .
`star
9:21 PM
ok i'm pissed, not jus angry, audd.
wad de hell? we can have freedom to do stuff rite? come in
"This is seriously a bad thread, cos you may be endangering some people.. You would never know how is the person like in real life.. I seriously think this thread is a waste of bandwidth."
sry but F*** You. dun like the thread dun like de thread lah! @ss off.. is not as if I DIN warn eli that the thread would be dangerous... even if u think that way, can u pls put it in a kinder way? f***
damn it... ok fine flare up till here
lols today... SUPER SIAN DAY.. and `star tested ut if i can really use phone in sch.. lols... haha
Audrey is feeling mad. Audrey is feeling retarded. Audrey is feeling gay. Audrey isn't herself. Audrey just feels, WEIRD! :D
OKAY, ENOUGH OF RANDOMNESSSS! Queenstown today with Eli & Twin! :D Pictures pictures timeeeeee! :D (Star, I gotta go my own way, is niceeeeeeeee! x3) HEEHEE.
Tata! AUDREY.
2:37 PM
ok lah i know this song down there th playlist got v but nevermind ! i love th song t much liao XD
Gabriella I gotta say what's on my mind Something about us doesn't seem right these days life keeps getting in the way Whenever we try, somehow the plan is always rearranged It's so hard to say But I've gotta do what's best for me You'll be ok.. I've got to move on and be who I am I just don't belong here I hope you understand We might find our place in this world someday But at least for now I gotta go my own way Don't wanna leave it all behind But I get my hopes up and I watch them fall everytime Another color turns to grey and it's just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away I'm leaving today 'cause I've gotta do what's best for me you'll be ok.. I've got to move on and be who I am I just don't belong here I hope you understand We might find our place in this world someday But at least for now I gotta go my own way
Troy What about us? What about everything we've been through?
Gabriella What about trust?
Troy You know I never wanted to hurt you
Gabriella And what about me?
Troy What am I supposed to do?
Gabriella I gotta leave but I'll miss you
Troy I'll miss you
Gabriella So I've got to move on and be who I am
Troy Why do you have to go?
Gabriella I just don't belong here I hope you understand
Troy I'm trying to understand
Gabriella We might find our place in this world someday but at least for now
Troy I want you to stay
Gabriella I wanna go my own way I've got to move on and be who I am
Troy What about us?
Gabriella I just don't belong here I hope you understand
Troy I'm trying to understand
Gabriella We might find our place in this world someday but at least for now I gotta go my own way I gotta go my own way I gotta go my own way
and this , my love !
冷咖啡离开了杯垫 leng ka fei li kai le bei dian As the cold coffee leaves the coaster 我忍住的情绪在很后面 wo ren zhu de qing xu zai hen hou mian I desperately tried to hold my emotions far behind 拼命想挽回的从前 pin ming xiang wan hui de cong qian Fighting hard to restore the past 在我脸上依旧清晰可见 zai wo lian shang yi jiu qing xi ke jian On my face you can still see ever so clearly 最美的不是下雨天 zui mei de bu shi xia yu tian that rainy day wasn’t the most beautiful 是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 oh~~ shi ceng yu ni duo guo yu de wu yan It’s the shelters that I once shared with you in the rain 回忆的画面 hui yi de hua mian The pictures in my memory 在荡着秋千 梦开始不甜 zai dang zhe qiu qian meng kai shi bu tian While on the swings dreams become less sweet 你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远 ni shuo ba ai jian jian fang xia hui zou geng yuan You told me that by gradually letting go I’d be able to go further 又何必去改变已错过的时间 you he bi qu gai bian ni cuo guo de shi jian and why bother changing the times that you’ve missed 你用你的指尖 阻止我说再见 ni yong ni de zhi jian zu zhi wo shuo zai jian you used your fingertip to stop me from saying goodbye 想像你在身边在完全失去之前 xiang xiang ni zai shen bian zai wan quan shi qu zhi qian imaging you being by my side before you completely disappear 你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远 ni shuo ba ai jian jian fang xia hui zou geng yuan You told me that by gradually letting go I’d be able to go further 或许命运的签 只让我们遇见 huo xu ming yun de qian zhi rang wo men yu jian Perhaps life’s destiny only allowed us to meet 只让我们相恋 这一季的秋天 zhi rang wo men xiang lian zhe yi ji de qiu tian (and) Only allowed us to love this one season of fall 飘落後才发现 这幸福的碎片 piao luo hou cai fa xian zhe xing fu de sui pian only after the pieces drifted down that I realized these are the pieces of happiness 要我怎麼捡 yao wo zen me jian How do i pick them up
long post by yours truly , `star XD
2:21 AM
I`ve go to move on and be who I am I just don`t belong here I hope you understand We might find our place in this world someday But at least for now I gotta go my own away
the more i listen, the more i felt emo.. haix...
think is the jealousy ba.. cing all my friends arnd me coupled..
despo? nah.. cos i can live without guys ^^
jus that.. it's nice to have someone there for u, a shoulder to lend, someone there caring for u.
especially now, i dread going sch.. especially mondays, where i have to spent the whole day with the class i dreaded...
is there someone there for me?
talking crap can ignore me ^^ cos i carn type this at my blog ^^ so here it is.. jus some thoughts ^^
i gotta go my own way.
the oldest ven^^
Sunday, September 9, 2007
11:47 PM
mm . i do eli de ! cos i love long surveys !
1. A guy/girl comes up to you and says, "Hey baby, what's your name?" Do I look like im a baby ? =.=
2. What's the last thing you put in your mouth? fruitips grapey sweets !
3. What does your last instant message say? Who's it from? haha ok tmr 2.30 - aiai
4. The last song you listened to? Byul
5. If you hated someone and got put in charge of their funeral music, what song would you play? play some nice song .aft all they dead alrdy what -.-
6. Where are/is your best friend(s) right now? at home slping bah .
7. What did you do yesterday? erm . ytd . cousin's house XD
8. Pick a scar on your body. How'd you get it? when i fell down and needed stitches -.-
9. What teacher have you hated most and why? Mrtan piano teacher . he sucked -.-
10. What do you want to do when you get out of high school/college? mmm . next time thn say bah .
11. What are your animal's names? i no animals ? LOLL !
12. What do you think really happened to Steve from Blue's Clues? dunno -.- disappeared into thin air ?
13. Last time you were dumped? dumped .... urm . all is break willingly one ?
14. Who's your most religious friend? they all like not religious liddat de -.-
15. Who do you trust with your life? th person i trust th most lah .
16. If you could change your name to anything, what would it be? bleahh . dunno XD
17. What's the best compliment someone could give you? did anyone tell you i have stm ? how am i supposed t rmb -.-
18. What do you hate most about your school? urm . wicked teachers -.-
19. How often do you curse? very X 100000 angry .
20. Last time you took a plane where was it to? .... hk ?
21. How many times a day do you log into frienster ? i login whenever someone adds me or sends me a comment -.-
22. Do you think any of your friend's boyfriends/girlfriends are cute? i can only think of ONE with a current bf .. and ... nahh . [ hope don't offend you hor ^^"]
23. What's the first thing you would do with five million bucks? slap myself ?
24. How would you confront someone you know was going to do physical harm to a friend? er... mmm . dunno -.-
25. Who's the fourth person on your top, how'd you meet? fourth . who's th fourth person ? -.-
26. How would you react if numbers three, six, and eight on your top all of a sudden moved away? no matter what sad lah -.-
27. What's the next thing you'll spend money on? food ! tml recess XD
28. What's one toy you remember having in the 90's? dya expect me t rmb what i had when i was 1-4 years old ? =.=
29. If you had a son, what would you name him? dao shi zai shuo XD.
30. Look through the nearest window, what do you see? th opp flat ? =.=
31. What's your mousepad look like? silver .. black ...
32. Who's someone you drifted from that you miss ? drifted ... alot sia ... just fell apart liddat ..
33. Which of your friends do you argue with most? hmm . friends dun have lah .
34. What nationalities are you? spore !
35. What's your dream job? slacker !
36. Who's the last person that you felt were stalking you? nahh . no one XD
37. If you could have any car, what would it be? those type of cute cute sports car ? jap de .
38. What's your favorite breakfast food? air XD
39. Last time you cried in school, what was the reason? urm . lets see . 070607 . some stupid guy hit my head so damn hard +.+
40. If you could get any piercing, what would it be? air XD
41. How about a tattoo? in my dreams , maybe ?
42. Do you have a crush ? What's his name ? crush dun have . aiai considered ?
43. If you had a choice to live anywhere, where would it be ? on thn moon XD
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101 questions
001: Real Name wingyan !
002. Nickname `star
003. Single or taken taken ?
004. Zodiac Sign pisces !
005. Male or Female female ?
006. Elementary School wrps ...
007. Favorite Color pink greatest love !
008. How many buddies on your msn 263 ?
009. Screen name `star
010. Hair Color black !
011. long or short long ?
014. Eye Color black black
015. Are you health freak um. no -.-
016. Height 158 ? 161 ?
017. Do you have a crush on someone i said , NO
018. Do you like yourself sometimes.
020. Think you're awesome nahh.
021. Piercings gd girl ?
022. Tattoos NOPEEEEE.
023. Righty or Lefty right ?
___Your 'Firsts'___
024. Surgery erm . dun think so ..
025. First piercing am i supposed t rmb ? -.-
026. First best friend felicia ?
027. First Award i got stm !
028. First Sport You Joined netball ! :D
029. First pet turtle ? fish ?
030. First vacation hk ! for sure !
031. First Concert dunno.
032. First love skip please ?
___Currently___
049. Eating air.
050. I'm drinking air.
052. I'm about to hug my bear XD.
053. Listening to silence.
055. Waiting For tml ?
057. Wearing shirt pants etc .
___Your Future__
058. Want Kids? skipppp.
059. Want to Get Married? skipppp.
060. Careers in Mind skipppp.
i dunno what happened to the missing questions. -.- [what happened t it lah T.T]
__Which is better with the opposite sex?__
068. Lips or Eyes? eyes.!
069. Hugs or Kisses hugs ?
070. Shorter or Taller erm . either ? not like 14X 19X can le -.-.
072. Romantic, Spontaneous BOTHIE
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms I WANT BOTH.
074. Sensitive or Loud mixture !?
075. Hook-up or Relationship er . anything -.-
077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? mixture ?.
___Have you ever___
078. Kissed a Stranger nahh
079. Drank bubbles yahh
080. Lost glasses/contacts yeap. tons of times
081. Ran Away From home gd girl here XD.
082. Broken any bones nope.
084. Broken Someone's Heart ehem . yea.
086. Turned Someone Down T.T yeap
087. Cried When Someone Died erm . i think so .?
088. Cried at school yeapyeap.
___Do You Believe In___
089. Yourself sometimes?.
090. Miracles soemtimes?
091. Love at first sight YES.
094. Magic dreams ?.
095. Heaven angels !
096. Santa Clause nopenope -.-.
097. Sex on the first date NOOOOO.
098. Kissing on the First Date see lor . heaven !
___Answer Truthfully___
100. Is There one or more people You Want To be with right now? yah . x3 aiai
101. would you repost this survey - repost ? now ?
`star !
9:56 PM
RAHH :X slower thn other ppl lah , today thn watch secrets . BUT BUT BUT . it was damn touching cans T.T i was like T.T when i was watching it . ROARS . aiai see me liddat go : NOOO ! WHY YOU CRY ?! pffft =.= next time go with girls better =.= guys dunno whats called TOUCHING . anw ruch home just in time for hsm2 ! XD was uber X 99999999 nice man . DAMN HOT CAN ,. I was O: tml start sch le ): i wna pon sch can ? go buy mc from doc -.- i wan conf soooooooooooo much .
AND VEN WOULD YOU KINDLY TELL ME WHAT YOU MSN-ED ME YTD T.T
random shot of clothes XD
7:01 PM
Booooooo! :D
Hahahaha, I am bored! Is the thing thing nice? I should have went! But no one to go with me. O: ): Booooo. Nevermind! Hahahahha.
I'm feeling super retarded! HAHAHAHAHA. On the phone, chatting on msn! (: Lalalala. High school musical 2 is starting soooooooooooon! x3 HSM2 IS LOVE LOVE LOVE! :D Keep this blog aliveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D
AUDREY.
4:30 PM
heyy hello people! ;D im backkk (: went for the GCA event @ suntec. kinda funcos we came early and no need queue up & not that crowded! ;Dthen we colected the stamps i hog on the comp and queue backcos my friend help queue. muahaha.audition booth so long queue luhs. LOL! then after that cont the restPANGYA BOOTH SO BORING-.- then after that, hog at comp before get the goodie bag. get the goodie bag, i blur sotong-.- then see see the stage thingVERY NICE LAAthe mascots dancing-.- then got questionaires. i volunteeered myself.zz.dunno what lai got that bottle-.- so paiseh pl0x.went to macd @ marina sq. and go back again at the place. well, just nice the audi performance going to start. i crazyyyy. -.- then took video of it, sorry if very lag and so on. D; then after that got like contest thingy laa. i kee siao go volunteer my selfden what DANCING LAAevil kia. follow the stepsthen one guy out cos ppl clap not loud enufthen we 3 left. say dance freestyleI START FIRST HOR. lol. all like dun wan dun wangot 2 guys 2 girls in the first place. then left 1 guy and 2 girls including me.then i start lor, they 2 dun want i STARTTT.dance like siaocharbor.-.- gooogoo. then hor but then i nvr win overallcos audience clap more for the guy LOL! but den, he abit shuai laa. i say, ABIT -.- got cap + the dog tag in the end.lol? went to hog on comp IDK CAN USE OWN ACC PLAY LOR. so, i didplay bp 2 gamesmuahahathen me and my friend went bunkk. comp 48 & 49played beat upthen got one girl char oso in bunk BUT THEN HORthe person playing it is a guy-.-he okay laa.almost those who come play bunk all very good looking people. xDD then siao siao bp dead dead. stoopid chnace laa. robbie _l_ dont haolian pl0x then went offgo back homerahhs. now the goodie bag like siaocome homemy sis chase affter it. D;
cute laa. + the quest card! xDDlets hog at the comp! ;Dmaple booth. xDI CLOSE MY EYS MANN. D; wonder whos inside. =.- mascot is ubber MANIAC.poof! in the vault
oops, turn ur head sideways pl0x. xDDall pictures derhs.
water bottle + the baloon ;D
big screeen ;D
mcdonalds fer lunch! ;D
emcee xDD
& not to forget the dancers. xDD song: techno party. xDD
and the maniac mascots! ;D *claps*
Just wanted to be with you % eliina -
1:13 PM
wa u all soooo free hor i c the questions u do.. eli!! 101 q? lols.. hmm guess i do audd de.. haha
1. A guy/girl comes up to you andsays, "Hey baby, what's your name?" wad de hell??? get lost. haha
2. What's the last thing you put in your mouth? er... shit? anything disgusting
3. What does your last instant message say? Who's it from? Did you msn me jus now? -it's not exact msg, but it's from `star ^^
4. The last song you listened to? I dun dance - HSM2.. (i listening to the playlist ^^)
5. If you hated someone and got put in charge of their funeral music, what song would you play? their favourite songs. i not so bad to even hated someone after they die.
6. Where are/is your best friend(s)right now? at their own home luh... i think.. -.-
7. What did you do yesterday? Whole day at sch lah.. lols
8. Pick a scar on your body. How'd you get it? fall when boarding a dragonboat for training..
9. What teacher have you hated most and why? my pri sch maths teacher. she hit me when i was dunno p1 or p2. cos i wasn't in the queue AT THAT POINT OF TIME AND SHE SMACK ME!!! i nv forget it... i was so innocent and she piak me... go die.
10. What do you want to do when you get out of high school/college? dunno, singer? part time at games store, work with animals!
11. What are your animal's names? blackie ^^ my hamster last time
12. What do you think really happened to Steve from Blue's Clues? dunno, audd say tio took over by his brother. XD
13. Last time you were dumped? dun wan say... norm i dump ppl.. LOLs
14. Who's your most religious friend? er.. my junior ba.. tried to convert me.. haha
15. Who do you trust with your life? my parents.. haha!!! see first ;D
16. If you could change your name to anything, what would it be? er... sakura ba.. haha lols.. nah i love ven ^^
17. What's the best compliment someone could give you? i'm my friend's stone pebble and rock.. lols
18. What do you hate most about your school? classmates, the notes, the lectures
19. How often do you curse? few times a yr?
20. Last time you took a plane where was it to? sec 3. to india to perform
21. How many times a day do you log into frienster ? max one time nia.. unless nid to smt.. if not i hardly log in de
22. Do you think any of your friend's boyfriends/girlfriends are cute? yeapp! ;D he sure does. but aww, too bad he`s not mine. (copy from audd ^^)
23. What's the first thing you would do with five million bucks? book the whole bunkand arcadefor audi, forummers & bunkers. xDDthen, room makeover & SHOPPING MADNESS to buy my anime stuff!!! and stuff i wan!!!! and a laptop!!!(red i added in.. rest copy from audd ^^ haha)
24. How would you confront someone you know was going to do physical harm to a friend? wad de hell u wan?
25. Who's the fourth person on your top, how'd you meet? huh??
26. How would you react if numbers three, six, and eight on your top all of a sudden moved away? huh??!!! but they are my friends i will be sad...
27. What's the next thing you'll spend money on? er holidays? cosplay!!!
28. What's one toy you remember havingin the 90's? my mickey! first toy somemore.. cos when i 1yr old ^^
29. If you had a son, what would you name him? hitsugaya/toushirou/xiao lang ^^
30. Look through the nearest window,what do you see? opposite block/neighbour's house
31. What's your mouse pad look like? black, but suppose to be inuyasha's movie. but my mouse cannot be on smooth surface so use the back. sad.
32. Who's someone you drifted from that you miss ? er i dun understand? my friend ba ^^
33. Which of your friends do you argue with most? my best friend. arguement topics? homework and SUPER LAME stuff that no one will argue on^^
34. What nationalities are you? singaporean -.-
35. What's your dream job? Singer? actress? if not marine biologist ^^
36. Who's the last person that you felt were stalking you? same reason as audd ^^ too ugly liaos ^^
37. If you could have any car, what would it be? sports car? sports bike! haha lols
38. What's your favorite breakfast food? my mum sandwich and my sch's bao ^^
39. Last time you cried in school,what was the reason? not too sure.. 22 jan 2005 ba... cos i help my crush woo the gal he likes
40. If you could get any piercing,what would it be? 1 more at my right ear.. or left? dunno which side.. haha
41. How about a tattoo? can... sticker or spray one ^^
42. Do you have a crush ? What's his name? dun have.. have also wont tell
43. If you had a choice to live anywhere, where would it be? live with audd!!!! XD anywhere on the purple line lah.. more choice of sch from nursery to uni ^^
ok i done liao.. happy reading ^^( i spent half an hour doing lols)
the ah ma ven ^^
12:38 AM
hmm updating my profiles for this blog done ^^
while updating.. i'm thinking alot.. think i may fall in love again.. with someone who already like someone... BUT i wont..cos i carn... i dun wanna emo again ^^ dun wry ppl i wont.. jus some thoughts... cos holidays are over ^^
means exams are here... haix.. have been mugging for the past week.. SERIOUS MUGGING..
super pissed off yesterday...
Guys.. so wad? big deal? nice making fun of gals? get lost.
wadeva... i'm tired.. seem slike conferencing called off.. any conferencing girlys? haha
ok end here ^^ signing off ^^
the ah ma ven ^^
12:17 AM
HIEEE XD im spamming againgagainagain . OK ! im supposed t be super super emo now sia T.T thn is like ... i no feeling now de -.- OMG CYBORG ._. erm . watch too much movie liao ^^" i wan conf on mondayyyyy ! i will personally CALL everyone de OK? XD be prepared for my call hors . dun be prepared i also dun care de XD
`star
12:15 AM
first thing first. eli is madd. went back to habbo. thats because my friend siao siao ask me join habbosoup deejay. lawls?
but i dont wish to. habbolitez just pwn my entire habbo life. talking about dj. yes, i was once a dj in habbowatch but i tio retired. then the owner oso tio retired, everyone retired.
well, yeah. its been 2 years you know.o.0 so i dj-ed p6?
but now i rarely play luhs. i found it boring.
anyway, x/3 imh is here. ;D thanks to mango for the nice poster! (:
and here tada.
a ss from me in habbo in my room ;D
Just wanted to be with you % eliina -
Saturday, September 8, 2007
11:24 PM
Posting again! :D
We're like flooding this blog with so many posts a day. o: Ahahahaha, I feel so sleepy, but I said I need to do my history until morning. o: How. Omgosh. I want to sleeeeep. ]: Oh well.
Oh oh, Staaar, why am I hyper anyway? O: I'm feeling quite moodless instead. :x POOOOOOOOOOOOOOF. Making the new cbox. Do await, do await for the arrival! (: Sleep early okay, you all? :D We shall conference some other day! Tomorrow, tomorrow? Hahahaha, I feel like chatting. :D
Will decide soon enough. Take care! x3
AUDREY.
10:51 PM
rahh :x audd must be hyper now . emo-ing side ? nahh not for me . eli and audd both emo luntil liddat liao , i still dare emo meh +.+ okay lah y'all XD okay ? just heck care all of them . and organize mass bunk outing aft exams okay okay okay ?!
ok anot luhs .XD
silent MEANS consent .
and i love emo sentences , btw . i am feeling un-troubled . XD
cute laa. + the quest card! xDD 
lets hog at the comp! ;D 
maple booth. xD 
I CLOSE MY EYS MANN. D; wonder whos inside. =.- mascot is ubber MANIAC. 
poof! in the vault
oops, turn ur head sideways pl0x. xDDall pictures derhs.
water bottle + the baloon ;D
big screeen ;D
mcdonalds fer lunch! ;D
emcee xDD
